I’m going crazy.
I really want to talk to my best friends right now but it seems like when I do get some time to talk with them, there is just too much to talk about and what I really want to talk about gets forgotten (by me, I mean. I’m serious). I just… I am so missing these people and I’d really love to have a chance to sit down and talk about all that I want to. I want to talk to someone who knows me really, really well about my future. I want to ask them if they really think that I would enjoy working in a theater and if I am being stupid and stubborn wanting to be a theater design major and I want to admit that I’m truly terrified that I won’t ever find a… Well, a husband. And I want to just pour my heart out in a way that, somehow, I can’t with the people at college. I’m thinking it’s the whole known-me-forever thing.
It’s hard in a way that I never anticipated. Just not having those friends that have known me forever around me… I know that I have good friends in college who love me and care. But they weren’t with me from when I was 2…
Anyway. I’m at Haylie’s house for Spring Break.
And she’s asleep.
But I wanted to get something up.